I Stand in Awe

Each passing day

Every moment I breath

I cannot help but stand in awe…

In awe of Your awesomeness…

Life is a journey

Vivid to some, and yet full of struggles

To some You’ve made their path smooth…

To toil and labor, that they necessarily do not dance with

To some, with all weight of depression,

Striving to survive does not seem to be an easy task

In all, their hope is dependent,

On a very short and simple word- ‘grace’-

‘My grace is sufficient’- You say.

Sometimes I lose it all,

Cos’ my world appears to separate meaning from truth.

All the same I stand in awe of You.

 

I saw this dawn with a heavy heart

With all within me seeking for the untold

Who on earth my thoughts could tell?…

Yet I stand in awe of You.

When my heart fails, I want to boldly say I am Yours alone

Yours alone I so gladly yearn to remain.

Sometimes I close my eyes to see the world beyond

Fog, yes fog is all I see

Oh that this weak spirit of mine

Could have all doubts erased from its being.

What if, yes what if in a tiny bit of way I am found wanting?

And that soothing voice of Yours soothingly reassures my being-

‘That you thought of that tells your love for Me.’

And then again my worries come knocking-

What if…(they say)… what if I am just so weak and weary, with my whole life turned inside out and upside down?
There You go again reassuringly…’Be of good cheer for I have overcome the world.’

Doubts…, doubts you just do not know when to let go! Do you?!

Feeling so lonely I crawl, and I crawl…

My feet has lost its ground!

It seems every bit of darkness that has ever dwelt upon this soil surrounds me…

I weep, I toil, I labor

I am broken to every piece, shattered…

Fear grips me and untold confusion overtakes me…

My head explodes!

From my bowels I scream!…

A heart felt cry from my lips released…

No…! No…! I can’t take this anymore..!

There again… just like you always do…

More lovingly than ever before…

You whispered… right on my ears… softly… Your sweet voice traveled down straight to my heart…

Resonating beautiful sound unheard of… easing every pain and restoring immeasurable calm…

‘I will never leave you nor forsake you’…-

Nine words! I felt like the coolest of all waters has been poured on my head…

The heat of distress that one could visibly see rising from my head disappeared…

Calm…calm is best suited to describe this moment…

A moment I pray to live forever…

Tears rolled down my cheeks…

All I could do and ever do is stand in awe of You.